May 2013
10 posts
harrysthefather:
DO PEOPLE NOT UNDERSTAND THAT I CAN BE SAD FOR NO REASON
babybehemoth:
Anxiety attacks are the worst because sometimes you have no idea why you’re crying or angry and you just think of everything wrong in your life and you can’t control it all you can do is breath in and out and cry it out
It’s been hard, you could say. This past month and a half has been very difficult for me. A lot has changed not only in me but in people I know.
Depression is getting the best of me again. It keeps me up all hours of the night. It makes me want to hurt myself. I’ve been cut free since December 2012. Almost six months. But lately I’ve been having these urges, I stare and my wrist...
April 2013
9 posts
I called you because I needed to talk to someone and the reply I get is “what’s wrong with you now”. I didn’t hear any sincerity in your voice, I just heard annoyance. I thought out of everybody since you’re my best friend that you’d want to help. But I guess I was wrong. I talked to you on the phone for less than five minutes before I said I had to go. There...
What is sleep? I don’t even know what that is anymore.
Right now life is just throwing things at me from all different directions. It’s breaking me. When I think things are starting to get better for me, it’s like somebody says nope I’m not going to let the happen I don’t want you to get better.
That happen today for instance, another obstacle was thrown my way.
It sucks,
when I can’t stop thinking about you…
March 2013
54 posts
2 tags
Eyes swollen.
Nose dripping.
I can’t stop crying.
I can’t stop worrying,
about whether you
stood strong or gave up.
I just need to know that
you’re okay.
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I haven’t been able to think straigh.
My minds all over the place.
I’m scared,
that when I wake up tomorrow morning
that you won’t be here anymore.
That you’ll be somewhere else.
I get sick to my stomach
when I imagine you
hanging from that rope.
Eyes closed.
Lungs empty.
Heart frozen.
I pray to God tonight that you’ll
make it through
the night.
I can’t stop thinking about what happened last night or what could have happened, you tried to kill yourself again and this time you almost succeded. I can’t tell you how much that scares me, I got so scared to the point where I started having an anxiety attack and my body started shaking and I started crying. I can’t tell you how happy I am that you’re still here, that...
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It gets kind of difficult sometimes to play the happy girl act. I wake up every morning wishing my life was better than what it is. Wishing that the depression was gone, wishing that the self harm scars where gone, wishing that all the fake happiness was real. It gets hard to pretend that nothing is wrong with me, that I’m not screwed up, that I’m just a regular teenaged girl who...
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It’s been a while since the last time I thought of you. I wonder if I still matter to you or if you even still remember my name or all the long talks we had about random stuff. I haven’t seen you around lately maybe you moved but where ever you are, I hope your doing well. Because I know I’m not. When you left, you took a part of me with you. I wish I could tell you I miss you...
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We don’t know we have something until we lose it. We don’t know we love someone until they say goodbye. We take things for granted and in return we get taken for granted. But you know that’s life. Life is full of surprises. Some good. Some bad.
But we got to keep hoping that someday things will turn around for us..
4 tags
Nobody knows how lost and broken I am… nobody knows that I cry myself to sleep sometimes because of how overwhelmed I am of life. Nobody know that I used to cut just to get through the day, they never even bothered to check. Nobody knows about my past and why I am the way I am, they don’t know what I’ve been through. Nobody knows, and they will never know because they will never...
I like drinking coffee alone, and reading alone.
I like riding the bus alone, and walking home alone. It gives me time to think, and set my mind free.
I like eating alone, and listening to music alone.
But when I see a mother with her child, a girl with her lover, or a friend laughing with their best friend, I realize that even though I like being alone, I don’t fancy being lonely. The sky...
Sometimes it feels like you’re pushing me away, and I don’t think you realize that…
“It really kind of sucked to be close to someone for so long and then suddenly...”
– Cecily von Ziegesar, Reckless (via simply-quotes)
I miss you, okay. Just because you left me,...
thedevilsdesires:
i suppose unconditional love exists to keep the world in balance- those who love and move on, and then those who love and continue to love long after it fucks with their being and destroys what’s left of an ever dissipating soul.
You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone…
I’m noticing again that everyone that care so much about; are hitting their breaking points.
unfixed:
Earth occupies my lungs until I forget how to breathe My fingertips scratch straight lines until wounds are sculpted throughout my cold skin I scream but the words get lost before they falter over my cracked lips and teardrops of black mascara hunt down my collarbones until I am sure no one will be able to save me because I am buried alive inside my own body.
